There's no use in dwelling on that. You can choose, now, who you'd like to be. And I know that's daunting, and it's not something I'd expect you to figure out in a month, or even a year, but you can start, hmm?

[She tries for a smile again.]

As for now... you're not so awful. A brat, sometimes, but I've yet to meet someone your age who isn't.