[ He crosses his arms at that, giving it only a moment of thought. He understands what Duo is saying and why he might be saying it, but Alphinaud definitely sees the situation differently. ]
It does naught to simply attempt to lead again. [ A pause. ] You've no idea how hard I have been working to better myself so that I may be worthy of leading others again. [ He remembers vividly the faces of those who still trusted in him, still believed in him. Those who were still loyal to him even after everything happened. He cried hearing that from them. Though he didn't, and still doesn't, think himself worthy of their trust.
He needs to better himself. It's important to him.
It would only lead to needless sacrifice were he to lead unprepared.
He hasn't particularly spoken to others about his feelings on this in detail though, so it's a bit strange to do. But he needs to explain why he was so eager to help him yet isn't eager to get "back in the saddle" of leading a group. ]
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It does naught to simply attempt to lead again. [ A pause. ] You've no idea how hard I have been working to better myself so that I may be worthy of leading others again. [ He remembers vividly the faces of those who still trusted in him, still believed in him. Those who were still loyal to him even after everything happened. He cried hearing that from them. Though he didn't, and still doesn't, think himself worthy of their trust.
He needs to better himself. It's important to him.
It would only lead to needless sacrifice were he to lead unprepared.
He hasn't particularly spoken to others about his feelings on this in detail though, so it's a bit strange to do. But he needs to explain why he was so eager to help him yet isn't eager to get "back in the saddle" of leading a group. ]