I'm going to take that as you being interested in him as well; hence, you feel more guilt about his loss. And Ava, if I taught you anything, it was that boys are idiots for the most part.

[He might not approve of her choice of places for sex, but what he didn't know, couldn't meet his disapproval. Of course, he wasn't about to judge her either. She was an adult and could make decisions for herself, so he was only here to make certain she didn't electrocute someone apparently and to make certain she was around so he didn't freeze to death in the storm.]

No, I know I'm right. Trust me, you think I haven't lost men and women under my command over the years? The guilt will eat you alive if you don't learn to let it go. Sure, you can feel bad for the loss and grieve them, but in the end, respecting their choice is the only real honour you'll ever give their memory.

[And her wondering at his choice because of... whatever circumstances made the kid believe he only was a civilian would complicate the issue. Alexei was dead, and questioning the level of choice was just going to lead down a dark road that would detract from the kid's sacrifice. No point doing that either.]

If you always question what motivates people, you'll go mad. It makes you paranoid.