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( introlog #5 ) strangerer things

You have spent the last few days on Thesa Station, taking in the knowledge that your world is no more. Perhaps you've made some friends (or maybe an enemy or two). Either way, you aren't expected to spend all of your time on the Station. El Nysa needs you, after all, and you promised you'd help the planet thrive. Are you ready?

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THESA STATION    
All refugees on the station are called to the hangar where a large-scale teleporter has been set up; everyone will be sent to the planet together. Simply step onto the space between the arrays and wait. Before they depart, all new refugees will be given a starter kit!

You may have heard about earlier technical difficulties, but don't worry. I promise everything is in perfect working order this time. I'd say I tested it myself, but since that's not exactly possible, you'll just have to trust me! (Please.)

The older refugees will also be there to guide you to ensure no one is left confused... or behind. Make sure you wait for them — I've been detecting something odd so I'll be having them meet you at the landing site. Good luck, refugees! Not that you'll be needing it or anything...

The arrays begin to hum and glow, quickly building into a brilliant wash of light. It creates a column that travels all the way from Thesa Station to the surface of El Nysa. With the night sky as a canvas, the beam can be seen all the way from Olympia and Wyver — a view that has the natives whispering of blessings.

As a sudden but beautiful aurora splays across the sky, the refugees down on the planet receive a message asking them to travel to the landing site — and warning them to prepare for what may come of the strange readings Zasere's gotten from the teleport itself.
ON A BEAM OF LIGHT    

Traveling through the light leaves the impression of blinding starlight, a strange sense of weightlessness, and a disorienting moment of total sensory deprivation. The radiance of your teleport hangs bright in the sky above you, a shimmering aurora that reflects off the calm waters below, visible for miles all around.

You've landed on a peninsula to the east of the South Outpost. There's little here — scattered trees on spring-barren plains, with a few overgrown, dilapidated structures poking out of the brush. All is quiet save for the keening of animals and the gentle lapping of waves against the shore. This lonely desolation is hardly the bustling cities and vibrant cultures you were promised back on the station...
BY CAMPFIRE'S GLOW. But waiting for you is a group of your predecessors, and with them, a veritable tent city, with portable stoves, coolers of food and drink, comfortable bedrolls, and cheerful rings of bonfires — all that you need to make merry of the night, courtesy of Overseer Voss, who has, thanks to his interest in blessed meteorological phenomena and refugees, decided to make a holy expedition of the affair.

Settle in, meet new comrades, and enjoy yourself, for you've safely completed your journey. But don't wander too far from the fires — the dark is closing in, and there's a strange, electric feeling in the air, the scent of ozone drifting on the breeze. And what were those odd readings Zasere mentioned?



A SHEPHERD OVER THE FLOCK. The spring sun dawns on a grey morning, already burning away the fog rolling in off the sea. It quickly becomes apparent that Voss and his entourage of acolytes have been up for hours, hard at work. They've set up a brightly-draped stage and a travel pulpit, magically enchanted to amplify his voice, and as the sun breaks over the horizon, Voss is all set to do what he does best: proselytize.

As our Goddess has sent Her blessing once before to herald the coming of those touched by Her light, so She has done once again! Here you see them, those surrounded by the light of our Goddess, each of them bearing the mark upon their skin of Her holiest of hands! Do you not see? Do none among you bear witness to the righteousness of Her message? Perhaps this is why our people have shamed themselves in front of our Goddess—

[ He continues for another 15 minutes... ]

Nevertheless. See you them before us now! See them as they are, coming to our gates with Her reminder, that these people must be treated with the utmost respect and care. Thesa's divinity is not to be treated with such flagrant disregard! Those who She chooses are not ours to use as mindless fodder, to hurt, to torture — shame upon those who allowed such deeds to shame us under Her watchful gaze!

To those of you who have just arrived here on our doorstep, be not afraid! The Temples of Thesa welcome you to our home with hearts and minds open! Should you ever find yourself in need of solace, seek out the Temples, as there are no greater allies to you than those of us within the Temple walls. You are welcome all to Olympia!


As he steps away from the enchanted podium, he can be heard saying aside to an acolyte, "How was that? Heavy on the shame, but I think it went well!" While he will not leave the area immediately, his acolytes will politely turn away attempts to speak with him and remind anyone interested that they can leave a message at the Temples.
CLOSE ENCOUNTERS    

Despite going off without hitch, the new refugees' arrival isn't entirely without incident. It seems that the "blessed" beam of light that brought the refugees down to El Nysa brought something else along with it — a sliver of the Storm. At least the beam was short enough that only a small fraction managed to squeeze through.

But it's enough to wreak a little havoc around the landing site and along the road back toward Olympia and Wyver — and even, for a few days, in the cities themselves.
THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE. The Storm is an undeniably destructive force, and that's proven with this small sliver's effect as it ripples across the continent. While there's no visible sign of its presence, strange phenomena soon begin to appear, corresponding with Zasere's odd readings.

They're innocuous little things at first. A sudden silence, animals going quiet, insects stilling. All technology, no matter how advanced, ceases working. You discover when you check with a friend, the clock on your phone is twelve minutes slow even though you'd swear only a minute had passed — time missing. Walking through the woods takes longer than it should when brushing past one bush leads to brushing past that same bush again — and again, and again, the area looping on itself. It keeps you trapped, going in circles for minutes, even hours, before finally releasing you in a random direction.

Or perhaps you'll feel a sense of deja vu, like you've walked down this road, taken this turn, seen that bird fly from this branch before. This is the second time that cat has crossed your path. The person you're meeting, you already know their name; you're certain you've already met.



WE GOT COWS. The Storm sliver also ushers in sudden, localized weather anomalies — heavy storms, blizzards, strong winds, and more. Affected areas range from just a few feet wide to nearly half a mile. One minute, the sky may be sunny and clear, but the next dark storm clouds roll in, unleashing torrential rain. Small tornadoes surge along the road, kicking up winds strong enough to knock people over and carry objects away. Hail hurtles down from the sky, but only in a ten foot radius. Temperatures fluctuate wildly between one extreme and the next, from heat waves to cold snaps. Soupy fog blankets the area, thick enough that you can barely see your hand in front of your face. Good luck finding your way!



FORGETTING IS SO LONG. The visions come on suddenly and with very little warning. One second, you're carrying on as normal — but the next, you blink and find yourself (and anyone near you) somewhere else completely. You may recognize this place as a moment from the past, one that you lived through. It's a memory, your memory, and it now replays around you in exceptional detail, unnervingly lifelike. Or you may not recognize it at all. It might belong to the person next to you, or to someone else entirely — a memory that the Storm has swallowed up.

Either way, the scene plays out just as it once did, and there's nothing you can do to stop it — or escape it. The memory surrounds you to no end: every door you open leads nowhere, every hallway you turn down continues on forever, every horizon you flee toward hangs just out of reach. And linger too long or turn the wrong corner, and you may find yourself abruptly stuck in a completely different memory. It's almost tempting, then, to give up, to let the past sweep you away...

But this isn't the full might of the Storm. Look closely, and you can see that in the walls of this trap, there are minute, hairline cracks, a facade of fractured glass. Imperfections in the memory where the real world is breaking through. It seems the only way to escape these memories is to find those cracks and break through them — by force, by will, or by some other method entirely.
DECISIONS, DECISIONS...    

The time is coming to make a choice — perhaps not a permanent choice, but unless you want to spend the rest of your nights out under the stars, you'll need to pick which city you will initially spend your time in. On the horizon, you will see that people have arrived to help you make that decision...
A FORK IN THE ROAD. Refugees and the hyper-religious wishing to hear Voss speak are not the only ones out and about under the light of the aurora. Citizens of both Olympia and Wyver have flocked to a point on the road midway between the cities and where the refugees have appeared, and they all have the same goal in mind: convincing the newcomers who have just descended in the blessed light of Thesa to come to their city and not the other.

They've come with bribes — that is, examples of what their cities have to offer. If you spent much time at the exhibition up on Thesa Station, you might recognize some of what's being shown off, though the offerings here are markedly more tangible, and shown off by hawkers wearing substantially fewer clothes.

A herd of pegasi accompanies the Olympians, while a line of flying serpents is stabled at a tent bearing Wyver colors. Refugees are given the chance to experience solo flights and are told that if they prove their loyalty, they may have the privilege of owning such fine beasts one day themselves. The Olympians have also brought couture clothing, jewelry, and makeup to offer a taste of Olympian splendor, while the Wyver delegation has brought along fine weapons, sense-enhancing jungle plants, and small vials of diluted dragon’s blood (drinking confers a temporary boost in strength) to demonstrate their might. The Olympians speak proudly of the glory of the Temples of Thesa; the Wyverns speak of the Volkkran Pact and inform newcomers that they can make a pilgrimage to the summit of Namarak Mountain at the next full moon.

This is as good a time as any to compare your plans with others around you and exchange contact information before going your separate ways with people who are going to the city you are not. When you’re ready to go, don’t worry about safe passage — the natives of each city will gladly escort you there in luxury.



OF WHITE AND GOLD. The people of Olympia are ecstatic that you’ve come to join them... So much so that they’ve prepared a grand tour of the city for the new arrivals. You will be introduced to the major businesses in the city, including businesses that they are proud to point out were founded by refugees.

Refugees who have been here for some time already are encouraged to pair up with newcomers to introduce them to the parts of the city they like best. To facilitate this, they’ve made arrangements with many of the business owners: new refugees who visit their shops (and older refugees who escort them) are given discounts!

Just a few examples of many: the Wyvernest offers free desserts to first time visitors with the purchase of a drink, refugees who visit the Silk Wyrms can have one custom (though not exceedingly expensive) outfit made for them for free, and visitors to Shades Darker are offered a half-hour session with one of the prostitutes at half price… or access to a private room, if they seem to have taken a shine to one of their companions on the tour.

Lastly, tour guides will point out that over the course of the next week, the train to Flona Cove will allow new refugees to board for free so that they can experience the seaside for themselves. With the weather finally starting to warm, this is as good a time as any for a visit to the beach, isn’t it?



OF RED AND BLACK. Life in Wyver is typically a sink-or-swim sort of experience — but in light of the valor recently displayed by their predecessors, the natives are now more willing to assist in getting newcomers settled. The entire journey here they have been talking up the virtues of their city… and now is the time to show everything that's on offer.

The well-known businesses in the city are prepared for the influx of newcomers. Some are giving out discounted samples of their products while others are offering a more hands-on experience: in exchange for working a few hours, they will give training in whatever task is being performed.

At the Forged, newcomers can learn the basics of crafting simple weapons (and take one of their successes home), while visitors to spas near the lagoons are trained in the art of massage. Those who wander to Falmi’s Ring can learn the art of pugilism or how to keep (and fix) books if they're more inclined to the gambling that goes on. Newcomers interested in Wyver's dragons can get hands-on experience at the Fields of the Exalted's nursery. While they walk from place to place, a guide may point out a job posting from Highwind Hires, noting that refugees can make a name for themselves outside official channels.

The last stop on the tour is the Undergrowth. The guides speak of the jungle in reverent tones and caution new refugees not to wander too far in. They warn never to explore alone, but also urge refugees to take time to familiarize themselves with it; after all, the jungle is an important part of life in Wyver, and those who are going to be living here should understand it as well as they do.
You've chosen your path, refugee, but that doesn't necessarily make it a permanent one. Watch out for the strange effects of the Storm, which linger still in the two cities and everywhere in between for the next few days before dissipating just as mysteriously as they came, but otherwise enjoy the welcome and make yourself at home — after all, this is home now.
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priorly: (➣ watchful)

[personal profile] priorly 2018-04-17 07:39 am (UTC)(link)
[There's still beauty here, crackling and electric in its transience, the last gasps of something fading from glory under clutter and lack of care. The place is like a gallery of lives lived: every scratch, every discarded trinket - Prior's fingertips skirt splinters in the doorway as he walks through it, as though he's tracing the outline of whoever passed this way before and was too rough with it. There is a lot that feels scratched and jagged-edged here, but not everything.]

This music...

[He looks like he might have been separated from a tour party, following the sound and letting it draw him in. The shift from wherever he was (a bed, but this isn't dreaming, he knows that state too well) to wherever he is doesn't seem to have come with a jolt.

And across the room, three figures, none of them unfamiliar. Two of them with a youth and beauty vital enough to clash sharply with their surrounding - the other growing almost to resemble it, somehow. Prior's expression's an odd mix of warmth and sorrow.]


Oh, I think I've been here before.
vorrutyer: (handsomely sexily broody)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2018-04-17 02:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh.

[ The nostalgic spell is broken by the sound of a voice that is a bit out-of-place. The unpredictable rhythms of English pulling him out of the singsong French of his childhood. He blinks like he's waking, and remembers himself - remembers that, yes, this isn't real. This isn't his life now. ]

To my home? And here I thought you'd lived your life earth-bound, dear Prior.

[ His smile is...complicated. A little shame, a little worry, a little sorrow, a glint of love submerged under all those murky waters. He looks back, then, at the two little waifs and their boundless joy. ]

While walking my memories, I presume?
priorly: (➣ curl)

[personal profile] priorly 2018-04-17 03:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Until I met you, perhaps.

[No, it was before that that Prior got tugged off solid ground, enough that Byerly's almost become an anchor, the most familiar place of escape he knows. He tries not to be invasive, but has never told him quite how deep the reach of recognition goes.

He crosses the room carefully, as if he might be a distraction to the musicians at its heart.]


Maybe not quite like this, but I feel like I know it. And the music - [He turns to the girl, solemn in her focus and yet delighted too.] it's often there, in the background of things.

[His mouth pulls upwards a tick as he shifts focus to the boy, that unguarded grin, as he lets himself get carried away with a spirited part of the piece, before softening up to let the piano fill back in: constant and flawless as before.]

And look at you, showing off.
vorrutyer: (warmth)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2018-04-17 03:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Mm.

[ His look softens even further. Byerly doesn't do shy - there has never in his life been a moment when he was shy - but there's maybe a touch of self-conscious hesitation when he says: ]

And here I didn't even know I was going to have an audience.

[ Which is a lie. Byerly was playing for an audience - Nadine rolls her lovely dark eyes at her brother's showiness, but the exasperation is a very flimsy cover for delight. Each of them takes open, unguarded joy in the other's presence - the teasing glances and grins don't do anything to hide that.

And that love lasts. There's more than a hint of pride in him when he says: ]


She's talented, isn't she?
priorly: (➣ lumen)

[personal profile] priorly 2018-04-17 03:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh you're talented, she's - well, we'd call it gifted where I'm from. Une fille douée.

[Byerly would be wheeled out to impress the guests at parties, she'd be given scholarships and special programmes. Or perhaps they both would, but she'd swim easiest with the biggest fish while he'd charm himself through with flair and that smile. It doesn't matter, though, the degrees of talent both or either of them have, it's the pleasure in it and each other that's the brightest thing in the room.

Prior finds himself stepping in closer, hooking his elbow with Byerly's before resting his head against his shoulder, watching the pair. It's french that he continues in, without thinking.]


You're both wonderful. I played piano - not well - with an old woman who'd rap my knuckles with a slide rule if a finger slipped the wrong way. I prefer this. There's no point being an only child if you're not horribly spoiled for it.
vorrutyer: (actually maybe unsmug)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2018-04-17 04:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[ That makes him laugh. The French warms him. The touch is a comfort; unguarded, he lowers his own head to touch lightly against Prior's. ]

I can't even imagine. Being an only child would be a torture. There's too much danger - going into battle against the older generations altogether without an ally. And no one to provide false alibis for you...
priorly: (pic#11746319)

[personal profile] priorly 2018-04-17 06:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, not no one. You're underestimating my popularity with the maid. But it was never a battle, for me. It's hard to fight something barely aware you're there.

[The piece Byerly and Nadine are playing sounds like it must be drawing to it's conclusion. Prior quiets to listen. It rarely gets this far, when it's a faintly present refrain somewhere in the back of Byerly's mind. He doesn't usually indulge himself in staying long enough to hear how it ends.]

I think I'd like to walk in space a little more. Do you think this... whatever it is, will let us look around?
vorrutyer: (world-weary (and smug))

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2018-04-17 08:31 pm (UTC)(link)
At the crumbling, rotting pile?

[ That's said with less viciousness than usual. With Prior speaking fond French in his ear, he loathes the place less than he does most of the time. And so with a warm glance at the children - a glance that looks like the glance a father would give, save that Byerly will never ever be a father - he turns and leads Prior out into the hallway. As he goes, he says - ]

Hold your nose. The smell gets quite remarkable in certain parts.
priorly: (➣ clasp)

[personal profile] priorly 2018-04-17 10:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah, so you've only been upholding family tradition all this time.

[Prior's nose has been nuzzled quite deliberately close to Byerly's shoulder for long enough now to undermine that comment, though he hangs back a little en route to the door. It means something, to have a memory of his own from before things started to crumble.

Another pleasant thing: to skip a step in the rush to catch him up in the doorway. The cane's back home beside the bed. In his mind he's almost never broken.

The hallway is - a hallway, a limb that doesn't seem detached from the room they've just been in, nothing untoward or out of the ordinary except that, as soon as they're both in it, the music stops. Replacing it nothing but a distant blip - blip - blip that Prior recognizes too easily as the tuneless refrain of a hospital monitor.]


On second thoughts, I liked that room, lets stay there. [Pulse racing fast enough to set off an alarm, he turns to be met by a wall of white.

Four of them, actually, building up around them as the hallway of Byerly's home tumbles like children's building blocks. It's a private room. One bed, a stark metal lamp angled over it like a spotlight as Prior tries to sleep. It would be easier if every breath weren't an effort, every movement a new ache. His face is all hollows and bruises, nobody would give the boy in that bed long, to look at him.

Prior... doesn't look at him. Can't look at himself. Now it's his hand roughly clasping Byerly's wrist, heading for the next door, another exit.]


No, no no this is not nostalgia, this was [There's tinsel edging the frame. He stops and looks at it, a telling little sprig.] right before Christmas. We can't stay.

[His hand moves for the door handle just as it turns, opens. Prior never made contact but he pulls back like something's scalded him, throwing that hand up to hide his face from the... very ordinary man who enters. Louis is clean, he's not starved or neglected but he looks like he's wearing three day old clothes. His features are taut, and there's a momentary pull of his lips, something squeamish, almost queasy, as he looks across at the bed.]

vorrutyer: (contemplating murder)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2018-04-17 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Byerly's face immediately hardens. Tension comes into him, all the softness of the moment before disappearing in an instant. He knows exactly who this is. He can guess the circumstances, too - there's no mistaking the way he looks at Prior, like he's looking on something untouchable. There's no mistaking Prior's fear, either.

This piece of shit.

By stalks forward. He doesn't touch Louis; he just circles around him, jaw set, eyes hard. Very ready to detest him. ]
priorly: (➣ torn)

[personal profile] priorly 2018-04-17 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[Prior meanwhile backs himself into a corner, rising distress marked out by the echo of his breath against the curve of his hand. He watches over the tips of his fingers as the Prior tied to his bed by IV tubes and stat monitors stirs slowly.]

He brought me in two weeks ago. I haven't seen him since. [The slip into the present is unintentional, this is recent enough to still feel visceral.] No, we have to get out of here. I can't do this again, we have to go.

[But he's frozen in place, and Louis cuts in with I'm leaving just as the Prior of his time's expression turns from momentary hope to something furious and wretched. The fuck you are.

I'm leaving, I already have.]
vorrutyer: (about to commit arson)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2018-04-17 11:31 pm (UTC)(link)
You can go, Prior.

[ His voice is a low growl. And then he amends that: ]

You should go.

[ But Byerly is staying. With hard eyes and a back curved like a feral cat contemplating attack, he stays, and watches. If he'd been presented with the choice, he wouldn't have; if he'd been offered the choice to either watch Louis devastating Prior or not, he'd have opted out. But Byerly has never been able to look away from what's in front of his face. He's lied and cheated and debased himself in the pursuit of truth, and truth for the service of justice. Here, before him, he has a view into just what this petty monster has done to the splendid Prior; how could he not bear witness to that crime?

His hatred is a cold thing. By the time Louis whines about his love for Prior, Byerly's face is cold as anything. Cold as outer space. His voice is steady, now, still soft. ]


That coward should have slit his own belly after this. Or had it slit for him.
priorly: (➣ clutched)

[personal profile] priorly 2018-04-18 08:24 am (UTC)(link)
[Louis stumbles over words like consequences and limitations, tries to plead practicality and suggests scheduling to somebody who doesn't know if they'll see the end of the week. He lays out the case for the finite resources of his love like a corporation defending a negligence claim and all Prior can pay attention to is himself.

He sounds crazy, here, like he's going crazy already. No guards up, nothing to deflect this with or use to protect himself. He's wearing his nervous system on the outside, raw and twitching. The attempts to attack - We have reached a verdict, Your Honor, this man's heart is deficient. He loves, but his love is worth nothing - sound more like pleas, and as soon as Louis turns his back on the argument Prior pitches over, holding himself because no one else will.

Like an echo, the Prior in the corner tips his head into his hands.]


He never had the framework for it. People don't, but other people stay. Other people have people who stay and build something, not destroy it.

[Destroy them. Because Prior's shattering now, visibly. I'm dying screamed across the room in a last desperate attempt to reach some human emotion in Louis, to try to make him understand the terror of dealing with that alone, the terror of being alone at all, now. Do you know what that is? Love? Do you know what love is? We lived together four and a half years.

And Louis, ever a gifted man at finding the worst possible thing to say at the worst possible time pulls off a prime achievement.

I have to find some way to save myself.

It hangs in the air like the afterecho of a slap.]
vorrutyer: (about to commit arson)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2018-04-18 01:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[ On old Barrayar - Time of Isolation Barrayar - they killed the hopeless cases. It's an ethos that's been carried forward to the present day, in some places - that when a man is ailing, when he is ill, you give him the coup de grace to cut short his suffering. And to ensure that valuable limited resources aren't wasted on those who can no longer contribute to society, of course, so there's a brutality to it as well, because Barrayar, but...It had to come from the hands of someone who loved you. From a commanding officer, for soldiers; from a spouse, for civilians; from a mother, for the young.

Galactics took it as a form of barbarism. But what barbarity is it compared to this? To justifying, excusing this cowardice? To having the right to be a coward without the censure of society coming and destroying you? If this man were a Barrayaran, he would be outcast and ostracized for this despicable act. Loving another man is forbidden, yes, but it is nothing compared to how utterly impermissible this dishonor is. He would be, and should be, an utter non-person for this. ]


Absurd.

[ That comes out as a low growl. ]

This fucking worm.
priorly: (➣ glyph)

[personal profile] priorly 2018-04-18 07:53 pm (UTC)(link)
He can't hear you, he can't even hear me.

[In the bed, Prior's taken to pleading with Louis to leave, now. It hurts too much, being alone was better before he knew for certain how alone he was. He's making a child's threat, go away or I'll scream but there are no other weapons available to use. No strength, no power, barely even the will left.

Curling in on himself, Prior covers his ears until his own screaming ends.]


It doesn't matter.

[And when I close my eyes you'll be gone.]
vorrutyer: (genuinely affectionate?? nah)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2018-04-18 11:57 pm (UTC)(link)
It does.

[ There's no comforting the Prior-of-then. But now, for the Prior-of-now, By turns and walks to him. Grabs him by the shoulders and embraces him tightly, almost painfully tight, pressing his eyes shut, gritting his jaw. ]

It matters.
priorly: (Default)

[personal profile] priorly 2018-04-19 10:50 am (UTC)(link)
Mm, no, it - it doesn't.

[Prior keeps his own eyes open, the way he didn't, then. And maybe he's not watching what really happened anymore, maybe this is just part of the odd human capacity to fill in gaps, the way the eye compensates for its own blind spots, but he watches Louis' face in that flickering moment where there's still a choice. He could go to Prior, or he could leave.

Byerly will feel the flinch as the door closes.]


That was the last time I saw him. Four and a half years, and he walked out while I was unconscious and only came back for this. This is all four years made him responsible for, not vanishing utterly without goodbye. Sometimes when I sleep alone I still wake up imagining he's there.

[Behind them, Prior's discovered the choice made, and now he's finally letting himself cry.]

But I'm finding myself relieved, now, when he's not.

[It's taken a long time. And Prior still turns his head away from his own words, in this moment painfully true but worse to hear played back now. I hurt all over. I wish I was dead.

It's an odd, shameful thing, and Prior rarely allows himself shame. This is what he was laid low by, not the disease, not even the end of the world but by one very ordinary person leaving him abandoned to both. It's this moment that made it seem pointless to suffer on.

Very, very slowly, he unwraps his arms from their protective curl around his own body and lets himself hold Byerly instead. It's a small, simple transfer of trust, harder to make than he ever lets show.]
vorrutyer: (super broody)

[personal profile] vorrutyer 2018-04-19 01:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[ By's fingers card gently through his hair. Hatred was something that came easily to him when he was a young man - after all, hatred was something as Vorish as wine and dueling. He hated those who trespassed against his honor, with honor a thing defined broadly and shaped as needed to justify that hate. As he aged, hatred came with more and more difficulty; even in these extraordinary circumstances, even with all the things done to him here, he can't think of any person he's come to truly hate.

Except Louis, of course. He wishes he could go up and disconnect his cryo-chamber. Let him thaw, let him curdle. That son of a bitch - ]


I'm relieved he's not there, too. If he were anywhere in my proximity, I'd be obligated to challenge him to a duel.

[ He doesn't let go of Prior - leans into him, to try to see if the bit of levity lets him relax a bit. ]

And it would be the worst duel of my life. Me chasing him about waving my sword, him yelping and trying to scramble away...
priorly: (➣ fluor)

[personal profile] priorly 2018-04-19 03:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Books.

[It's hard to relax, frankly, when there's another you crying across the room. It won't last long at least, all this will finally have exhausted Prior into a wretched, fitful sleep, and leave him wondering for days afterwards if perhaps it had been a bitter dream. Until he gets home to find empty spaces all over his apartment. The bookshelves most of all.]

Louis only ever duels with books. Still badly for the most part.

[Finally willing himself to stop crying seems to have paid off. The broken sounds have drifted into broken sleep instead. Prior exhales a shaky breath against Byerly's shoulder, hiding his face and his relief.

He doesn't hate Louis. It would be easier if he could. He can at least see more clearly the weakness that lead to this, but can't hate him for that.]


And the sword would be overkill. That's not how you'd win, you know.
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[personal profile] vorrutyer 2018-04-19 04:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Overkill is still a kill.

[ His hand drifts downward to stroke at Prior's neck, like soothing a cat. ]

Fairly certain that's the motto of the Barrayaran military, actually. - So how would I win?
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[personal profile] priorly 2018-04-19 06:32 pm (UTC)(link)
If you're going to start quoting military protocol at me you could at least wear a uniform while you do it.

[There, levity. A common reach during times of strife and struggle. Even if it doesn't quite reach its mark, it's something. And these gentle touches, they're something too - a type of affection Prior's never been able to help responding to. Human contact.

How would he win?]


But you'd win with no blood drawn.

[It's not the most romantic location, they've yet to manage one of those, but there's nothing inappropriate about a kiss by a sickbed. It might be the most proper place in the world. And so Prior's hand slips to the back of Byerly's neck, enough to bring that lean in closer, and lifts his own head to meet him there.

Leaving Prior, and losing him: to Louis, they'd be very different things.]
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[personal profile] vorrutyer 2018-04-20 11:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[ By kisses back. He's still furious, and sick at the sight of Prior so frail, and so it's not quite as deep as it would be in another setting. But it's sincere, and loving, and attentive. For all Byerly's playing at selfishness and callousness, his physical adoration - that intense physical expression of love - it's gentle and true. It's hard to doubt the depth of feelings in the play of his lips and hands.

After a moment, though, he breaks it off, muttering - ]


But I want to draw blood.

[ Then he returns to the kiss. ]
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[personal profile] priorly 2018-04-20 11:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[Prior's feelings have... never really been in doubt, but what's noticeable is that he hasn't quite learned to kiss without expecting some sort of recoil. He kisses like he's surprised to be kissed back - not used to feeling tentative, but learning how to unlearn it as he goes along. To be pulled close this fearlessly with his past self foreshadowing his future barely a few feet away is as close an antidote to everything toxic in Louis' words as it's possible to get.

Being in love again, for all that it's a foolhardy, stupid-fucking-thing to do, it helps, too. Louis closed the door and for the first time replaying this memory, Prior doesn't want him to open it again.]


Oh, he bleeds over everything, he'd barely notice. [Pressing his forehead briefly to Byerly's, Prior takes a moment to find some fortitude before looking across at himself again. Empathy now, not horror or shame. He's got enough to live through, without that.] I think I'm done here now. They make coffee at the nurses station more bitter than a jilted lover. Want to stop for a cup?
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[personal profile] vorrutyer 2018-04-21 03:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Sounds a grand plan.

[ His hand slips down, taking Prior's. A gesture of rare sweetness. He tugs Prior forward, out of the room, leaving that weeping exhausted echo behind.

They do not, of course, come to the nurse's station. Once through the door, they're back in that rotting manor. It's worse, now, than it was in the previous memory - more cluttered, more degraded, the sickly smell in the air stronger. Something's died, it seems. But the three sitting around the table hardly even seem to notice.

Nadine looks all right. She looks a bit better, honestly, than in the prior memory - in the years between that one and this, she's clearly picked up an ability with a needle, and so her clothes have gone from being worn and ill-fitting to just being a bit plain. Byerly is clothed the same, his suit homemade but decent, but he does not look particularly well; he has the red eyes and squint of a man suffering from a hangover combined with the hyperexaggerated movements of a man well into curing it though several hairs of several dogs.

Sober, shabby, and rather beautiful in the way that all the Vorrutyers inevitably are is their father. He has those dark long-lashed eyes that all their clan share, the high cheekbones and arched lips, a full head of dark hair threaded with gray. If he were shaved, and if he were wearing half-decent clothes, he'd look the part of a respectable gentleman indeed. And if his children weren't with him, too - it's clear how much they both loathe him, though in different ways. Nadine does not so much as glance at him, turning her eyes anywhere but towards her father; Byerly, in contrast, keeps looking over, his mouth set in a furious line.

They eat in utter silence.

By - the By of right now - he looks between them, then over at Prior. He doesn't know exactly what scene this is, from when, but he has his suspicions. And he's worried. ]


Ah. Here's that tour after all, it seems.
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[personal profile] priorly 2018-04-22 02:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[It's the smell that gets him first. They've done nothing but go from one sick room to another, but lacking wipe-clean walls and bleach swilling orderlies this one tells of its decay. It smells infected, and the contagion's clear around the table. Prior lets his stomach turn and settle before he speaks, a twist of dramatic irony in the words (though they're gentle - there's no sneer to his tone.)]

How fortitious.

[Making a quick assessment of the room, it's easy to settle on the one pertinent fact: it's not a good place to be. Whatever's preceded this is still seething near the surface of this cold, quiet water. The younger Byerly's barely concealed agitation's clearly building to explode, whether he makes it to being excused from the table or not.

What's the saying about unhappy families? Prior's seen his share of familiar failings and yet there's something about the misery here that feels ingrained, dirt pressed too deep under the nail bed to ever scrub out. And it's Byerly's father Prior can't quite look away from. How he can preside over this without flinching is inconceivable to anyone with an idea of what a father should be - and Prior's own example's a poor enough study.

His hand in Byerly's curls tighter, and the step he takes forward's partly out of desire not to be here for this, partly putting himself, shoulder and side, between Byerly and that deathly tableaux. Between Byerly and that man.]


So that's the dining room. I like what you've done with the - [A beat.] walls. Very Gormenghast. Your room next?

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