[Happy, huh. Being with One had made him happy -- even when it hurt, when it was scary and painful, he knew deep down that he was happy.]

[But maybe that happiness just wasn't enough. One had said it himself -- he couldn't hurt Shell anymore. He loved him too much.]

[He wanted him to be healthy and happy. Even when he was gone.]

[...]

[Beneath the surface of the water, he gives Reign's hand a gentle squeeze in return.]

That's what I think too. I... I-I know I wouldn't want him to put his life on pause if he woke up and I was still asleep.

I just need to work on... accepting that it's okay for me to want things too.