[Thank heavens for Rashomon, doing the responsible recycling.
Maybe Akutagawa's hatred wasn't personal - but it never is, is it? Does that really make it more acceptable? Maybe Atsushi doesn't know what kind of history Dazai and Akutagawa had, exactly - not in great detail, anyway - but it still shouldn't be an excuse for Akutagawa to take his frustration out on Atsushi.
That said, even knowing that, Atsushi feels childish himself to be feeling that way. He doesn't want to hate Akutagawa, but he's not sure how to let go of such feelings without being a doormat for all of Akutagawa's rage - and that's the one thing he can't accept. He's been kicked around and beaten up and almost drowned enough in his life; he can't - he won't - put up with that anymore.]
It's not so simple. [Whatever Chuuya's reasons for believing that Akutagawa won't kill him.] We promised we'd fight each other, six months from when we last met.
Well... that's over ten months ago by now, for me.
[Even so, Atsushi isn't planning to go back on that promise. If and when Akutagawa shows up, if he wants to fight, Atsushi will fight him.]
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Maybe Akutagawa's hatred wasn't personal - but it never is, is it? Does that really make it more acceptable? Maybe Atsushi doesn't know what kind of history Dazai and Akutagawa had, exactly - not in great detail, anyway - but it still shouldn't be an excuse for Akutagawa to take his frustration out on Atsushi.
That said, even knowing that, Atsushi feels childish himself to be feeling that way. He doesn't want to hate Akutagawa, but he's not sure how to let go of such feelings without being a doormat for all of Akutagawa's rage - and that's the one thing he can't accept. He's been kicked around and beaten up and almost drowned enough in his life; he can't - he won't - put up with that anymore.]
It's not so simple. [Whatever Chuuya's reasons for believing that Akutagawa won't kill him.] We promised we'd fight each other, six months from when we last met.
Well... that's over ten months ago by now, for me.
[Even so, Atsushi isn't planning to go back on that promise. If and when Akutagawa shows up, if he wants to fight, Atsushi will fight him.]