[Anders is withdrawing. Justice has said something wrong, and that fact makes his words stumble, sliding together when normally they would be perfectly enunciated. Justice doesn't know how to fix this, how to make sense of what is going on in his head and parse out the most just action without hurting Anders. He feels like he should know exactly what to say right now, and he doesn't.
This is exactly why he's not suited for mortal relationships. He doesn't know how to fix this, so all he can do is plead.] I did not say no, Anders. Please just--I need to think.
[It physically hurts to have Anders pull their hands apart this way. He can feel Anders' misery radiating off his skin--or perhaps that is only his own.
He needs to think. He stares down at the water, struggling to string his thoughts together and make them coherent.] There is no one better for me than you are. That is not my hesitation. My hesitation is that there are better people for you. People who do not... struggle so much. People who do not doubt their ability to love. People who can prioritize you over any virtue.
You committed yourself to me once and I brought you nothing but pain. I want you to have some happiness, Anders.
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[Anders is withdrawing. Justice has said something wrong, and that fact makes his words stumble, sliding together when normally they would be perfectly enunciated. Justice doesn't know how to fix this, how to make sense of what is going on in his head and parse out the most just action without hurting Anders. He feels like he should know exactly what to say right now, and he doesn't.
This is exactly why he's not suited for mortal relationships. He doesn't know how to fix this, so all he can do is plead.] I did not say no, Anders. Please just--I need to think.
[It physically hurts to have Anders pull their hands apart this way. He can feel Anders' misery radiating off his skin--or perhaps that is only his own.
He needs to think. He stares down at the water, struggling to string his thoughts together and make them coherent.] There is no one better for me than you are. That is not my hesitation. My hesitation is that there are better people for you. People who do not... struggle so much. People who do not doubt their ability to love. People who can prioritize you over any virtue.
You committed yourself to me once and I brought you nothing but pain. I want you to have some happiness, Anders.