[ Wow, is this -- his subconscious taking the form of Prior to nag him about not addressing his own problems in his own dream?
That, John thinks, it's probably good evidence there's something wrong with him.
He shoots Prior a look of mild distaste for picking him up on it, then flits his eyes out across the floor again. The scattered colours on the floor ripple as if they're underwater, and it almost makes John smile for a second. ]
That some things can't be fixed.
[ There's no bitterness this time, it's just honest. ]
People always want to fix things, so they can feel they've helped and then they feel better about it and I get that. I do. But they don't... ask how I want to be helped. They just want me to talk about everything so they can look at me like --
[ Like he's some sad, pitiable thing that needs to be fixed. Well, maybe he doesn't want to be fixed. He sighs in frustration, blinks back a tide of irritation threatening to take over. ]
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That, John thinks, it's probably good evidence there's something wrong with him.
He shoots Prior a look of mild distaste for picking him up on it, then flits his eyes out across the floor again. The scattered colours on the floor ripple as if they're underwater, and it almost makes John smile for a second. ]
That some things can't be fixed.
[ There's no bitterness this time, it's just honest. ]
People always want to fix things, so they can feel they've helped and then they feel better about it and I get that. I do. But they don't... ask how I want to be helped. They just want me to talk about everything so they can look at me like --
[ Like he's some sad, pitiable thing that needs to be fixed. Well, maybe he doesn't want to be fixed. He sighs in frustration, blinks back a tide of irritation threatening to take over. ]