[ He doesn't want to tell Steve that he nearly wasn't. He almost lost his mind in that fog and he thinks if Thomas hadn't found him that he might still be back in Olympia. He also doesn't want to tell Steve that things feel a hell of a lot more okay now that Steve's here, because he's not really sure that any of this is going to work and the idea of knowing that the end could be coming and he almost hadn't gotten a chance to talk to Steve had weighed on him heavily.
It's not like Bucky can't survive without Steve. He knows he can and he's done it. It's more that surviving isn't all there is anymore. There's a fundamental part of him that will always be wrapped up in the other man and he's okay with that. Steve makes him want to do more than survive.
If his eyes are a little misty as he looks at Steve, he's going to pretend it was the cold. ]
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[ He doesn't want to tell Steve that he nearly wasn't. He almost lost his mind in that fog and he thinks if Thomas hadn't found him that he might still be back in Olympia. He also doesn't want to tell Steve that things feel a hell of a lot more okay now that Steve's here, because he's not really sure that any of this is going to work and the idea of knowing that the end could be coming and he almost hadn't gotten a chance to talk to Steve had weighed on him heavily.
It's not like Bucky can't survive without Steve. He knows he can and he's done it. It's more that surviving isn't all there is anymore. There's a fundamental part of him that will always be wrapped up in the other man and he's okay with that. Steve makes him want to do more than survive.
If his eyes are a little misty as he looks at Steve, he's going to pretend it was the cold. ]
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