[ the realization that spreads over his features is heartbreaking. and for half a moment, lily wants to tell him that it isn't true -- maybe she survived, maybe he did, but just when he starts to truly... well, panic, he brings himself back to her. and lily continues to hold his hand, tightly, to keep him focused on where they are. right now.

the news that sirius is here is a rush of relief. good. that is good. because sirius is one person that they can trust, above anything and anyone else, and if sirius is here, then that means they have one more person on their side. but as james keeps talking (working things out, she knows), lily steps forward to rest her forehead against his chest.

at first, it isn't entirely clear why, but: ]

They told me you were awake, but I didn't believe them. I didn't think I was ever going to see you again.

[ it's said quietly, and she draws in a breath. she won't cry again, not right now. and james is seeking confirmation from her. ]

-- but they told me my son was safe, and that you were awake. And you're awake, so. . . [ harry has to be here somewhere. ]