[ her brow furrows slightly at that, almost trying to comprehend the news. not being able to hurt harry is important, but unimportant in the face of what else remus is telling her.
sirius found james. good. that means james stuck to his word and didn't do anything incredibly stupid, though lily isn't so sure she has the faith in the two of them together to continue keeping to that word. but -- twelve years? us. so sirius is older, too?
that would make harry thirteen.
-- she closes her eyes for a moment, visibly trying to shut down the rush of thoughts through her head. overwhelming isn't even an appropriate word for it, it's somehow worse than that. this gaping hole inside her that doesn't seem to want to go away, the thought that harry is now thirteen and (probably) at school and he had no parents. and suddenly, lily wants to ask a million questions, about what happened, in an effort to know . . . but she also knows that there's a time, and a place.
and it isn't here, surrounded by pods. ]
We can go through that later. [ finally, and she opens her eyes. she looks exhausted, but resolved. ] All of it, it's . . . you don't have to apologize. [ lily is having a difficult time envisioning the gap that now exists between them, between herself and her friend, but: ] What we need to do right now is find Sirius and James before . . .
[ but she's missing an important piece, here, and something remus needs to know, and lily sucks in a breath. ]
James didn't know. He didn't remember. Halloween, and I told him, but -- [ but it's going to sound extraordinarily different coming from sirius, and belatedly, lily is realizing splitting up was a stupid idea, and she huffs to herself, blowing her hair out of her face, allowing herself to look less overwhelmed and more typically-annoyed. ] You know James, I was crying and he was so focused on trying to make that stop that he probably didn't listen to a single word I said.
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sirius found james. good. that means james stuck to his word and didn't do anything incredibly stupid, though lily isn't so sure she has the faith in the two of them together to continue keeping to that word. but -- twelve years? us. so sirius is older, too?
that would make harry thirteen.
-- she closes her eyes for a moment, visibly trying to shut down the rush of thoughts through her head. overwhelming isn't even an appropriate word for it, it's somehow worse than that. this gaping hole inside her that doesn't seem to want to go away, the thought that harry is now thirteen and (probably) at school and he had no parents. and suddenly, lily wants to ask a million questions, about what happened, in an effort to know . . . but she also knows that there's a time, and a place.
and it isn't here, surrounded by pods. ]
We can go through that later. [ finally, and she opens her eyes. she looks exhausted, but resolved. ] All of it, it's . . . you don't have to apologize. [ lily is having a difficult time envisioning the gap that now exists between them, between herself and her friend, but: ] What we need to do right now is find Sirius and James before . . .
[ but she's missing an important piece, here, and something remus needs to know, and lily sucks in a breath. ]
James didn't know. He didn't remember. Halloween, and I told him, but -- [ but it's going to sound extraordinarily different coming from sirius, and belatedly, lily is realizing splitting up was a stupid idea, and she huffs to herself, blowing her hair out of her face, allowing herself to look less overwhelmed and more typically-annoyed. ] You know James, I was crying and he was so focused on trying to make that stop that he probably didn't listen to a single word I said.