[ Listen, if you can't make grown men cry 'cause they see you eating multiple helpings of mapo tofu, he doesn't know what people are doing with their lives. ]

What meaning did I find? [ He repeats the question before smiling to himself. ] I was able to gain insight into what it was I was truly seeking. I was able to realize that ultimately it not the answer that I wanted. An answer that you are simply given through power is not an answer at all.

[ It would be like ten years ago when he had skipped so many steps and simply given what he wished -- happiness. In that happiness, he saw his true shape and realized his error. Simply given the color of his soul so readily, so easily, he was not able to be satisfied with the result. ]

You have to struggle for it. You have to agonize for it. You have to see it painfully come to light rather than force the last steps. Indeed, the meaning I found was in that my execution was wrong. Yet that did not make me happy. [ An important distinction. ] It only allowed me to know where to start again.