I have had to be very conscious of my actions and words.

[for fear of upsetting or angering a guest, his words have always been more tactfully modulated and having spent so long consciously making them so... he doesn't expect to ever lose that habit.

But perhaps he can be... looser? Perhaps that's all right.]

It is strange for me to be... familiar. But then it seems that many people are. I won't emulate them but perhaps I can take cues?