[ johnny and alvis are both gone. she's checked their houses, then she'd checked the station and found them both in stasis, peaceful and still and looking like they're both dead, gone from her reach, and then? then she'd found herself a large bottle of whiskey and poured the first two shots in their name and every shot after in the name of everyone else she misses. it's a long list, and somewhere in the back of her mind, she thinks khlyen is laughing at her, cruel and cold even though she knows better now.
she got attached. he told her never to let her feelings get in the way and she got attached and she's not going to fall back on khlyen's lessons now, but it hurts.
alcohol dulls the edge, but it doesn't make her any less angry or hurt. when the bomb goes off, dutch keeps drinking, but she takes her gun out on the streets regardless. it'll be a distraction. she's a killjoy, or she was. finding people is what she does. (she's never been a killjoy solo; it was always with johnny or with d'avin, with both of them. she wants her team back.)
running into byerly isn't expected, but not unwelcome. ]
Nosing about? [ her voice doesn't immediately betray that she's drunk, but — it's there, her tone a little less crisp, her gaze a little less focused than usual. ]
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she got attached. he told her never to let her feelings get in the way and she got attached and she's not going to fall back on khlyen's lessons now, but it hurts.
alcohol dulls the edge, but it doesn't make her any less angry or hurt. when the bomb goes off, dutch keeps drinking, but she takes her gun out on the streets regardless. it'll be a distraction. she's a killjoy, or she was. finding people is what she does. (she's never been a killjoy solo; it was always with johnny or with d'avin, with both of them. she wants her team back.)
running into byerly isn't expected, but not unwelcome. ]
Nosing about? [ her voice doesn't immediately betray that she's drunk, but — it's there, her tone a little less crisp, her gaze a little less focused than usual. ]