[ His manner is warmly teasing, now, even if the subject matter perhaps doesn't exactly warrant teasing. I had to deny myself so utterly that I fled from one person to the next, like a fugitive - That's not something that ought to be joked about, perhaps. But Byerly remembers the disgust and loathing with which his father had looked at him, after he'd been caught in the woods with Piotr Vorfolse. He remembers his first love affair in the capital, with Kirill Vorpatril - he remembers not even being able to recognize the man's cruelty, so desperate was he for anything at all with a man that he couldn't even see that he was being mistreated. What other option is there, aside from laughing at it? The only other possibility is going mad. ]
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[ His manner is warmly teasing, now, even if the subject matter perhaps doesn't exactly warrant teasing. I had to deny myself so utterly that I fled from one person to the next, like a fugitive - That's not something that ought to be joked about, perhaps. But Byerly remembers the disgust and loathing with which his father had looked at him, after he'd been caught in the woods with Piotr Vorfolse. He remembers his first love affair in the capital, with Kirill Vorpatril - he remembers not even being able to recognize the man's cruelty, so desperate was he for anything at all with a man that he couldn't even see that he was being mistreated. What other option is there, aside from laughing at it? The only other possibility is going mad. ]
You'll make me feel special, dear Dorian.
[ And he stands, tugging Dorian to his feet. ]