[It's only when Mikazuki takes his finger off the trigger that Atsushi realizes how firmly he was gripping the guy's wrist. He relaxes, eventually releases, though he still stands very deliberately in the way. If Mikazuki wants to shoot the terrorist, he'll have to shoot Atsushi first - and Atsushi wouldn't put it past him just now, but that's not important. Who cares if Atsushi gets shot? He'll heal - and he's used to pain.]
I'm not asking you to.
[Whatever Mikazuki wants to do about Shino is up to him: Atsushi isn't about to interfere. But killing? That's something he can never approve of.
It still hurts. He's had this feeling before: the idea that Mikazuki is always one step away from destroying himself. Risking your life for someone can be admirable, but that doesn't mean it should be done lightly. Atsushi feels like Mikazuki doesn't take his own future into account at all - and that is extremely painful to see, even to someone like Atsushi, who doesn't consider himself worth the air he breathes. He still hopes for the future; he still aims for better. That's the one thing he's never seen Mikazuki do, and it's excruciating.
But it's not something Atsushi can change. Atsushi may or may not be able to help Mikazuki out from time to time, but in the end, Mikazuki makes his own choices.]
... Please be careful.
[He knows it's pointless to say; he knows Mikazuki won't listen. But he says it anyway.]
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I'm not asking you to.
[Whatever Mikazuki wants to do about Shino is up to him: Atsushi isn't about to interfere. But killing? That's something he can never approve of.
It still hurts. He's had this feeling before: the idea that Mikazuki is always one step away from destroying himself. Risking your life for someone can be admirable, but that doesn't mean it should be done lightly. Atsushi feels like Mikazuki doesn't take his own future into account at all - and that is extremely painful to see, even to someone like Atsushi, who doesn't consider himself worth the air he breathes. He still hopes for the future; he still aims for better. That's the one thing he's never seen Mikazuki do, and it's excruciating.
But it's not something Atsushi can change. Atsushi may or may not be able to help Mikazuki out from time to time, but in the end, Mikazuki makes his own choices.]
... Please be careful.
[He knows it's pointless to say; he knows Mikazuki won't listen. But he says it anyway.]