[ it's not that he wants an out. it's that they came here to eat and drink and flirt a little, and what they're doing instead is - well. it's something that requires more trust than that. or at least to not be sat across a table from each other, plates of food in front of them. ]
It doesn't bother me. I'd like to talk about it. It's - I don't know, it just feels a bit impersonal.
[ John gestures helplessly to the table in front of them, expression apologetic, like the setup distances them and he's sorry he misjudged. like he can't give enough of himself to conversation with dinner in the way.
and here John's own experience comes into play. there's a date and there's friendship, and he very rarely finds them bleeding together: to be sitting across the table from Thomas now, knives and forks and wine between them, is a whole different beast to sitting comfortably in armchairs or closer around the table, whisky or beer or tea at the ready, listening intently and talking in return. ]
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It doesn't bother me. I'd like to talk about it. It's - I don't know, it just feels a bit impersonal.
[ John gestures helplessly to the table in front of them, expression apologetic, like the setup distances them and he's sorry he misjudged. like he can't give enough of himself to conversation with dinner in the way.
and here John's own experience comes into play. there's a date and there's friendship, and he very rarely finds them bleeding together: to be sitting across the table from Thomas now, knives and forks and wine between them, is a whole different beast to sitting comfortably in armchairs or closer around the table, whisky or beer or tea at the ready, listening intently and talking in return. ]