[ thomas admits it, forcing himself back down, though he can't bring himself to try and pull his hand back. he lifts the other one to his face instead, a first clear indication just how affected he is, how frayed his control had to get before he sought refuge with john.
his chest still feels too tight. ]
But I doubt I will be of much use in my current state. [ another admission. it's also as close as he'll come to saying please right now, as close as he'll get to admitting that john's proposed remedy is sorely needed right now. being near john exacerbates the problem.
a hard fuck, pardon his french, might solve it. at least temporarily. isn't that what john has just suggested? ]
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[ thomas admits it, forcing himself back down, though he can't bring himself to try and pull his hand back. he lifts the other one to his face instead, a first clear indication just how affected he is, how frayed his control had to get before he sought refuge with john.
his chest still feels too tight. ]
But I doubt I will be of much use in my current state. [ another admission. it's also as close as he'll come to saying please right now, as close as he'll get to admitting that john's proposed remedy is sorely needed right now. being near john exacerbates the problem.
a hard fuck, pardon his french, might solve it. at least temporarily. isn't that what john has just suggested? ]