[ the truth of it is that thomas is glad for john's lack of impatience, the fact that there will be a steady progression of things here. it makes matters feel less like a fevered encounter in the back of a brothel and more like something he might share with john for no reason other than because they want to.
it means that john will have time to get on board, that thomas won't need to worry, after this, that he somehow made john do something that he didn't want to do, that he didn't feel. that john is doing this as a kindness to him rather than because he wants to.
but no — john is far from unaffected and it prompts a smile against john's lips from him, small and breathless though it may be. ]
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it means that john will have time to get on board, that thomas won't need to worry, after this, that he somehow made john do something that he didn't want to do, that he didn't feel. that john is doing this as a kindness to him rather than because he wants to.
but no — john is far from unaffected and it prompts a smile against john's lips from him, small and breathless though it may be. ]