[ Dazai does his best not to smile too widely or chuckle in amusement at how Linneus practically dodges his own scandalous admission of wanting things, as if airing those thoughts will either jinx them or shame him in some way. To offset the momentary gloom his voice dips conspiratorially low, sharing a secret that only Linneus seems to find taboo. Playfully matching his companion's whispers, he aims for a light-hearted attempt at teasing that isn't mockery in the least.
Of all things in this world, want is hardly the worst of them. And wishing to lay claim to anything, to say 'I need this', is no sign of selfishness or greed. Not when everyone deserves to voice what their heart desires to make them whole or to proclaim how empty a lack of a particular thing may make them. ]
You're allowed to have wants, Linneus.
[ Spoken in those low tones, it sounds as though their subject has shifted yet again, away from merely the arduous tasks of mental recovery, and back towards those unspoken things that both have hinted to.
And yet his follow up couldn't hold purer intentions or more encouraging words for a young man who seems to need all the reassurance in the world that he's allowed things, and to hold his breath in hopes of them. ]
A home of your own, hobbies, friends, love, relationships- All of it.
[ The sheer sake of wanting those things and being firm in needing them is no crime. Even a man as ruined as Dazai is permitted to desire more for himself than he ever has considered in his life before. ]
Ah, you're right. [ A small shake of his head. ] No favors.
[ He mirrors the rebuttal, doing so as his way of making a promise. Dazai knows that in Linneus's life bartering one thing for another leaves too much pain in it's wake. So a favor done for the sake of another, with the hope of getting something in the end, surely hits too close to home. So he tactfully rephrases it in the vein of a mutual venture. ]
no subject
[ Dazai does his best not to smile too widely or chuckle in amusement at how Linneus practically dodges his own scandalous admission of wanting things, as if airing those thoughts will either jinx them or shame him in some way. To offset the momentary gloom his voice dips conspiratorially low, sharing a secret that only Linneus seems to find taboo. Playfully matching his companion's whispers, he aims for a light-hearted attempt at teasing that isn't mockery in the least.
Of all things in this world, want is hardly the worst of them. And wishing to lay claim to anything, to say 'I need this', is no sign of selfishness or greed. Not when everyone deserves to voice what their heart desires to make them whole or to proclaim how empty a lack of a particular thing may make them. ]
You're allowed to have wants, Linneus.
[ Spoken in those low tones, it sounds as though their subject has shifted yet again, away from merely the arduous tasks of mental recovery, and back towards those unspoken things that both have hinted to.
And yet his follow up couldn't hold purer intentions or more encouraging words for a young man who seems to need all the reassurance in the world that he's allowed things, and to hold his breath in hopes of them. ]
A home of your own, hobbies, friends, love, relationships- All of it.
[ The sheer sake of wanting those things and being firm in needing them is no crime. Even a man as ruined as Dazai is permitted to desire more for himself than he ever has considered in his life before. ]
Ah, you're right. [ A small shake of his head. ] No favors.
[ He mirrors the rebuttal, doing so as his way of making a promise. Dazai knows that in Linneus's life bartering one thing for another leaves too much pain in it's wake. So a favor done for the sake of another, with the hope of getting something in the end, surely hits too close to home. So he tactfully rephrases it in the vein of a mutual venture. ]
A shared experience, then?