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Who: Theon Greyjoy (
reek) & Various
What: Theon got a canon update! It's not pretty. Here's a catchall.
When: May
Where: Olympia...mostly not leaving his home tbh
Warning(s): Typical ASOIAF/GoT warnings & added torture mentions
[ Starters will be in the comments! If you would like one and we haven't talked about it yet, PM me or grab me at
muttonchops, or just wildcard me. Theon will largely not be around Olympia, but he will visit the stasis units closer to the end of the month if you want to catch him then. ]
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What: Theon got a canon update! It's not pretty. Here's a catchall.
When: May
Where: Olympia...mostly not leaving his home tbh
Warning(s): Typical ASOIAF/GoT warnings & added torture mentions
[ Starters will be in the comments! If you would like one and we haven't talked about it yet, PM me or grab me at
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He’s likely to end up on the floor later on, and then he’ll explain. He’ll explain everything. The kennels, Abel and his washerwomen, Jeyne Poole, everything. For now, he’s too tired to do anything but obey. He reaches for one blanket, pulls it over his frail body, then hesitantly reaches for second, thicker one. Nagga, ordinarily an energetic show-off, seems to sense that something is wrong with him, and simply curls up beside him, resting her head on his chest and wagging her tail. ]
This is enough.
[ Even if he were more than a ghost of himself, he doesn’t know how to be taken care of. He was always cared for when he was ill, of course, but it’s been a long time since he was truly mothered by anyone. It's a foreign concept to him. ]
Thank you.
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Hardly that now, as Claire fixes the blankets where she can without getting too close. No one's ever looked at her and been so afraid before.]
You're welcome, Theon. [Theon, his name, a thing she's sure to say often now.] I'll be near. I'll wake you when it's time to eat something.
[She almost dares to touch him, to brush some of that white hair away from his forehead, but settles for giving Nagga a gentle pat on the head.
Claire leaves him to his rest and goes about making him a plain meal, easy to eat with mangled teeth and easy for a stomach to digest. She doesn't push him, doesn't do much but sit with him when he's awake, listening to anything he feels like telling her, and speaking softly in return. And she sends Jamie a message: I'm not coming home tonight. Just what every husband wants to hear on his birthday. She promises to make it up to him, and she promises herself that she will.
When it's time for her to turn in she ends up scrolling through the network instead of actually sleeping. Too many concerns and too many questions swim around in her head. So, when the sky begins to lighten, she heads back home. She needs a change of clothes, some supplies, and Theon could do with some clothes that he's not swimming in. He'll need to go outside, eventually, and he did take a certain care when dressing himself before.
It's still early when she returns, and so it's a quiet knock at his door so as not to startle him too terribly.]
Theon? Are you awake?
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He’s awake and upright by the time the first knock sounds. There’s a moment of confusion and terror as he glances wildly around the room, a moment in which he begins to reach into the caverns of his memory to remember the name that was given to him, but then he remembers. Not the Dreadfort, not Winterfell, not even Westeros. He hasn’t physically been there for nearly a year, despite what the marks on his body say. ]
I—yes.
[ His voice still sounds too thin and weak, even too his own ears. Clearing his throat does nothing to help it. He wonders how it can be possible that Ramsay took that from him as well. ]
You can come in.
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Good morning. [She says instead, just as a way of greeting. Over her arms is folded some clothing which she drapes over the foot of the bed. He can look at them later. Everything is on his schedule beyond meals, for now.]
I got you some clothes that might fit you better until you fill out. If you feel like taking a walk, sometime.
[In her own gloved hands she holds another pair, darker, finer. She looks down at them before she sits near Theon. Close, but at arm's length.]
I thought you might like to have these. I don't know if you want to wear gloves, but it's an option. I could alter them for you to better fit, or we could stuff the fingers. It's your choice.
[Or skip them altogether, but when she was at the house, she found herself stopped at the small collection of Robb Stark's belongings. Not hers to go rifle through, let alone take, but if Sansa or Jon got upset at her removing a pair of gloves she'd welcome them to confront her about it. They had plenty memories of their brother. Of him actually being their brother. What did Theon have?]
Robb's not here to help you. I know he would want to do something. So.
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[ He glances through the window with furrowed eyebrows. Time was impossible to tell in the dark. Years and years could have passed and he never would have known, but he has that luxury now. He can see the light over the trees and judge the sun’s place in the sky. In truth, it gives him a certain sort of satisfaction to be able to say what time of day it is.
He gently pushes Nagga off of his chest, pulling himself up to better observe what Claire has brought him. He had one set of clothing in Ramsay’s keeping, rags that were never to be taken off except at his command. It was only when the Boltons relocated to Winterfell that he received anything warmer. And now—
There’s a tug at his heart. A sharp ache. He recognizes the gloves she’s holding out to him. Too small to be Ned’s, not quite Jon’s style, and Theon himself always wore gloves made of silk rather than leather.
They’re just gloves, he tells himself. They’re the same as any Northman wore. It’s stupid to be so sentimental.
But he takes them into his hands anyway, and he can’t help the teary laugh that bubbles up from his throat.
Stupid, he continues to chide himself, but he shakes his head, trying to work up the words to respond. ]
I had so much time to think. To think about what I’d done. Maximus says it was only three days, but it wasn’t. It could have been a hundred years. A hundred years since I betrayed him.
[ His best friend, his only friend. ]
I should have gone back. I should have been there. I should have died too. Alongside him.
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[But Theon wasn't a man. Robb wasn't a man. They were young, too young. Old enough to know right and wrong, but too young handle the weight on their shoulders.
She takes a deep, shaky breath.]
Do you want to be dead?
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He trusted me. He trusted me when no one else did. He made me a member of his guard. We went to battle together. He...he never said, but I think he sent me home because he knew.
[ He drags a hand across his eyes, gazing dropping back to those stupid gloves that have caused him to go all emotional. ]
He knew I would never be able to go home unless he let me. He trusted me to return, and I didn’t.
[ Why didn’t he? What had been so important? He can hardly remember now. Balon is dead, his uncles don’t care about him. It was all for nothing. He betrayed his best friend for nothing. It will weigh on his heart forever.
He falls silent for a moment, mirroring Claire’s shaky breath and trying not to sob. ]
I would rather die than go back to being the creature he made me into.
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That won't happen. I swear it on my own life. Things are going to be better for you, Theon.
[It's a big promise and not one she might be able to truly keep when it comes to it, but the intent is there. She'd never let him suffer if she could do anything about it.]
Will you come here?
[Words said to him weeks ago. Only just weeks ago when he's suffered enough for a lifetime. She doesn't expect him to, won't force him to come into the comfort offered, but it's there. She did tell him he could tell her no, after all. She meant it.]
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Still, Claire is promising a lot. She’s promising what Abel and his washerwomen promised: safety. This time, Theon knows he can trust her, but he also genuinely cares about her safety as well. He never cared about Abel’s women. He wouldn’t have mourned for them, and if they failed to escape Winterfell on their own…
Their foolishness was their own downfall. We escaped, but it was foolish.
He hesitates at her request, still staring down at Robb’s gloves. He needs a moment longer to think, but the longer he looks at those gloves, the harder it is to hold back tears. Eventually, it’s just easier to creep forward and hide his face by tentatively embracing her.
She won’t hurt him. He tries to remind himself. ]
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It's all right, Theon.
[To cry, if he must, or to simply allow himself a moment of not being terrified. He's not fine and he's not all right. Right now, though, Ramsay doesn't know he's back. No one but the people in this house do, and if Claire could keep it that way, she would.]
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He thinks of his mother, her face nearly lost to him, and the last time she embraced him, and it all clicks together. What Claire is doing isn’t so dissimilar to Lady Stark refusing to leave Bran’s side after his fall, or trying to protect Robb from making poor decisions. She’s acting as a mother might. She’s been acting as a mother for months.
Another pitiful sob of laughter. How is he only just realizing it now? ]
I’m sorry.
[ He’s not even sure what he’s apologizing for. It’s just an ingrained response, and one of the few he can think of babble out between tears. He wipes them away, shaking his head. ]
Thank you. Thank you for bringing these to me. They’re…I don’t want to cut the fingers off. Please. They're fine.
[ They really are just gloves, but all he has of Robb are memories, and some of those memories have been tainted by his own betrayal. It’s nice to have something tactile and real, something that he can’t mess up. ]
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Because she's Claire, and some habits are hard to break, she fishes out a handkerchief from her skirt pocket and presses it into his hand without a word about the tears. They don't bother her. This is much more preferable than him saying he's fine. This is honest.]
You're welcome. I hope they make up for the rest of the clothing, if they're not to your liking.
[Except she pays attention, and unless his tastes have changed (very possible), she thinks she did right by him. And if they happen to be reminiscent of Greyjoy colors, well, certainly it's a coincidence.]
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His breath hitches in his throat when she offers him her handkerchief. It’s something so small, but meaningful. She doesn’t say anything, she doesn’t ask, and that’s preferable to speaking about those tears. He dries his eyes, sniffling, and he turns a bleary gaze to the other pieces of clothing for the first time. He hadn’t noticed them at first. ]
You haven’t just stolen from Robb’s wardrobe.
[ It’s an attempt at a jape, but they both know that if he’s swimming in his own clothing, Robb’s would be even worse. His tastes haven’t changed. He’s still drawn to his house colors and to finer fabrics. He can’t help it. ]
Robb dressed too much like his father anyway. Dull, the Northmen. They all dress the same.
[ He’s still drying his eyes, still breathing like he’s going to cry again, but he reaches for a piece of clothing and he seems to approve. ]
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[It cost more coin than she should be spending, given that she hasn't set foot back in the Sanctuary since her kidnapping and rescue, but the cobwebs in her coin purse are worth it. Clothing is so insignificant in the grand scheme of things. But it's something to talk about as he regains his composure, and it keeps her from letting the burning behind her eyes win.]
I noticed. Ned and Jon would blend into the bloody furniture.
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He lapses back into a brief silence, a pale ghost looking inconceivably paler in contrast to the pile of dark clothing. It’s a surprisingly short moment of silence. He’s apparently found a sense of comfort with Claire along with these gifts. ]
I never liked to blend in. They were going to stare anyway, so I gave them something to stare at.
[ Sure, it was vanity, but it was vanity with a purpose. Everyone knew who he was, what he was, and they regarded him as such, so he made them see just who he was. The heir to the Iron Islands, golden krakens on everything he owned, but he took everything he owned for granted. Now, he touches those fine clothes like they’re just as fragile as he is, his eyebrows knitted together. ]
Lord Ramsay didn’t give me much in regards to clothing.
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I imagine not.
[Hesitantly, she reaches to touch his hair with a sad smile. God knows what made this happen.]
If this is too much of a bother, I can color it for you.
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He jumps, just little, and reaches up to touch his own hair. It’s grown longer, and there isn’t a single dark strand or dark curl left. He doesn’t know when it happened, but it’s very clear that it isn’t going to go back to its previous color. ]
Maybe.
[ He frowns, not looking forward to the process. For now, this is fine. He's put up with it for months, and it isn't as though it pains him. ]
Maybe at a later point.
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There's no rush, darling. You're still handsome. You always were. He didn't succeed in taking that.
[He might be startling, and take some adjusting to, but the eyes are still there. One day he'll look less like the walking dead, be more than skin on bone. There are much more important things, though.]
But if there's anything you'd like me to try and fix first, please let me know. Even if it's just... aches and pains. You don't need to suffer them any longer.
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He falls silent, running his tongue over those splinters in his mouth. ]
Teeth can’t be repaired.
[ He’s never heard of a maester repairing teeth. Teeth are neither flesh nor bone, but they are unfortunately the worst of his troubles. It hurts to eat, sometimes to the point where he would rather take his meals completely in wine. Everything else hurts as well, but he’s grown used to it. He doesn’t wait for a response, because he thinks he knows that there is only one: no, they cannot. ]
Everything else has healed.
[ Not particularly well, but it's all healed. He limps when he walks and sometimes bleeds through his boots, but that doesn't seem worth mentioning. There are some fresher wounds hidden beneath his clothing, but they'll scar over in time. It's nothing he isn't used to. ]
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We can do something. Implants, dentures--but only when you're ready.
[She's itching for him to allow her to examine him properly so she can address the damage and take care of what she's sure is there and he's simply not mentioning. But she won't push.
Not yet.
They'll just have to work on him getting used to her touching him. A thing he only just tolerated before his return to stasis.]
Until then, we'll work on getting your strength back.
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He doesn’t know those words: implants, dentures, but they offer him some faint hope. He doesn’t expect miracles, but perhaps he’ll be able to eat properly again. He nods, and he asks no more questions on the matter. ]
You can leave, you know.
[ He doesn’t mind her company, actually. He was so long without the company of anyone beyond dogs and torturers, after all. ]
There must be others who you need to see to.
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[Where she's most needed.]
I'm not boring you, am I?
[She gives him a small smile. Boredom is probably not a worry of his.]
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I feel as though I should be doing something.
[ He’s nothing but skin and bones, but it isn’t as though that stopped him from doing daily work as Reek. He was a servant as well as a prisoner. So long as he could perform tasks, he was put to work. ]
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I can find you a book, or we could play a game, or... I don't know. Anything. Go for a brief walk. Or, continue doing nothing. The only obligation you have is to rest.
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He’s frightened, but he feels cramped in this room. It’s safe, but locks and doors can’t keep out the inevitable for long. Maybe Ramsay is preoccupied. Maybe he has better things to do. A walk can’t hurt. ]
A walk?
[ A limp, in his case. ]
Not far. Just...far enough.
[ Far enough to clear his head. It may even get him talking. ]
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