[ he's going somewhere with this. it hurts to say it, makes him feel old when he hardly ever thinks about it. birthdays fly like they're just another day on the calendar without meaning (they lost their meaning almost twenty years ago). ]
I don't have much anymore. I've screwed up too many times, ruined too many people's lives... [ why the hell is all of this coming out of him ] I want to help because I'm... tired of fucking up. I wanna do something good for once in my life. That's all I'm looking for before I get what's coming to me.
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[ he's going somewhere with this. it hurts to say it, makes him feel old when he hardly ever thinks about it. birthdays fly like they're just another day on the calendar without meaning (they lost their meaning almost twenty years ago). ]
I don't have much anymore. I've screwed up too many times, ruined too many people's lives... [ why the hell is all of this coming out of him ] I want to help because I'm... tired of fucking up. I wanna do something good for once in my life. That's all I'm looking for before I get what's coming to me.