The pillow is tossed down against Shino's torso with finality for emphasis as Yamagi puffs out an exasperated breath. It's true; there may have been all sort of openings he'd been too cowed or proud to take advantage of. Shino isn't wrong in that regard.

The friendly hugs and the hair mussed into a mop one time too many. All this time, he's assumed Shino was being his goofy, unassuming self. Yamagi for his part has expected too much, too soon with little effort on his own.

"I was stupid."

He sinks onto the bed, one palm planted on either side of Shino on the not too firm bed. That's certainly why his arms are trembling.

"I wanted to earn your affection. I wanted you to like me on your own."

He was too proud to pursue and he's paying for it with a lifetime of regrets.