Making him cry is inevitable, isn't it? A certain feeling of guilt pangs in Shino's throat and he has to swallow it to keep breathing. He'd hurt him that day. Shino knew it all along, but he's realizing more and more the depth that he'd hurt the two most important people in his life. He's not used to making people cry, but he keeps doing it to Yamagi. He's not sure how to stop. He's not used to someone caring about him so honestly.

He tightens his hand around Yamagi's, fingers firm but not squeezing too hard, trying to anchor him with some silent assurance. As much as his chest is tightening, he can't cry too. He continues to keep as much of his weakness concealed to the quiet nights when he can't sleep. He wants to be cool and strong now. It's all he can think to do for him.

Shino lets out a shaky sigh and turns his head away from him, eyes still shut. He curls his thumb and rubs it against the back of Yamagi's palm as warm tears continue to hit his hand.

"I'm sorry."