nysalogs | May Catchall

_{[To her credit she could've acted out much worse. Part of her had been contemplating going to the Red Light district and finding some unfortunate soul to devour but she'd made her way here instead. The desire for comfort seemed to outweigh her stomach for once.

As a friend and maybe more...but what did he even mean by that? Diva can barely navigate the various facets of friendship let alone something more...but that's not the important part.

She feels...rejected, but putting up more of a fuss wouldn't help her get her way. It's not like she even knows what she really wants anyway. All she wants is to stop feeling so terrible.

He gets a small nod in reply to his offer. It's not like she's going to go back to an empty house or worse, one with Solomon in it right now.]}

Mm...

[He appreciates that she didn't do a lot worse - and that's another sign of how she's grown, isn't it? Emotions are (almost) always valid; it's how you deal with them that counts.

It's plain to see that her sleeping over isn't some magical fix-all, but it's all that Atsushi can in good conscience do just this moment: simply being there for her, in body and spirit ~~if not in dick~~. He puts an arm around her, trying to reassure her that he's here, and that he will never leave her, let alone over something like this.

He couldn't say when he's gotten so happy about sharing a bed with someone, but it's warm and comfortable and he'll nuzzle close in his sleep. For all that he meant to reassure her that she's not alone, he's sure reassuring himself at the same time.

He may or may not also develop some morning wood. It's a total coincidence, he promises!!]

Edited 2018-06-15 19:41 (UTC)

_{[It's easy enough to just let Atsushi embrace her and be done with it as she finds herself laying down, cuddled into his chest. It doesn't take her long to fall asleep either. She's tired, emotionally and physically, and soon enough she's drooling, breath even as she rests. Over the course of the night it doesn't take much for the two of them to become tangled up in one another, limbs weaved together haphazardly. It's only when Diva finds herself trying to roll over in her sleep that she catches her hair under her own shoulder, the action tugging enough on her scalp that she wakes up.

Groggily she finds herself staring at Atsushi's still sleeping face in the dim light of dawn breaking. Up slides a hand, finger extended so she can boop him gently on the nose. She's not trying to wake him up, but she does feel fidgety, chest still heavy from last night.]}

[Atsushi is used to nightmares, but somehow sharing a bed with someone tends to keep them at bay. (Funny how that works.) In spite of having slept already, he's deep asleep in no time at all, cuddled up against and around Diva through the night.

When something touches his nose, his eyelids twitch and he sorta kinda makes a face, but it's not enough to wake him.]

Hng...

_{[It's a cute face, and he gives her a pretty good reaction...but it's not enough. There's another poke, as she shifts closer to him, thigh brushing up between his legs. It's warm like this and she doesn't particularly want to move, but she does want a response of some sort.]}

Hn-mmm... Daifuku, stop...

[Cats that want to be fed early in the morning. Why!?

... Hang on, this is bigger than a tiger cub, isn't it? Atsushi blinks open his eyes. Oh, right. Diva stayed the night and -
OHGOD WHERE IS SHE TOUCHING WHAT DID HE DOOOOO?!?!? He can't believe he got hard on her again! Never great at fight or flight, he does the usual and freezes. On the one hand: they've done things before, and this is warm and comfortable. On the other hand: it's so embarrassing to get hard without meaning to?!?]

... Good... morning.

[How is he supposed to handle this? Maybe she hasn't noticed?! No, that's definitely impossible.]

_{[She's noticed, but her lack of reaction is a testament to just how much she cares about his little morning wood predicament. There's a slight shift forward as she moves to press her forehead against his, skin warm, muttering her own good morning in the process.]}

Did you have a good dream?

_{[Why else would he be hard right now? They had only been cuddling, after all.]}

Edited (bc i can't spell apparently ) 2018-06-17 20:06 (UTC)

Yes... I think?

[That's a lie. He's not doing a whole lot of thinking.]

I should probably... take a shower.

[Specifically: a cold one. But he's not leaving just yet, because this really does feel good.]

And... you know...

[He glances down. The plan is to will his dick to go limp, because there's no way he can jerk off when she's right in the next room.]

Why are you embarrassed?

_{[It's not like she hasn't dealt with him popping a boner around her before. In fact, she very vividly remembers having stuck her hand down his pants not that long ago.]}

You smell okay I think?

_{.[And just to make sure, she gives him a little sniff. Yep. Smells fine to her.]}

Because!

[Okay, that is not a good reason. But the problem is he can't put his reason into words very well. Logic has nothing to do with it.

Much like being smelled and told he smells okay shouldn't give him goosebumps of appreciation, or pride, or whatever else it is. It feels kind of good...]

That's what you're supposed to be! It's an embarrassing physical reaction.

Even if you... like it.

[He hasn't forgotten that. Like he'd ever forget anything remotely like a kind word said to him.]

_{[Yeah sorry Atsushi, Diva's not buying it. She has zero shame when it comes to her own body, so she doesn't understand why he's being so squirrelly. If anything it only serves for her to keep him close, her hold on him going tight. He's not wriggling his way out of this one. She doesn't care if he burns up from embarrassment either.]}

Of course I like it, especially if I'm the cause for it.

_{[Because, in her mind, it means he wants her, and especially after last night's emotional rollercoaster, the desire to be wanted is still there.]}

If you wanted me you can tell me. I told you last night you can have me, remember?

[For his part, Atsushi doesn't try to get away, even if the situation is pretty awkward. Whether that can be chalked up to personal development or if he's just quick to give up is anyone's guess.]

... I remember.

[How could he forget? It's not every day he has girls throw themselves at him! The problem (one of many, really) is that he's not entirely sure Diva knows what she's offering. For that matter: he's not sure what he'd be giving, either.]

But is that really okay?

[It wasn't at the time; he's still convinced of that. It would have felt like taking advantage, and he wouldn't have forgiven himself, even if she had. But now? It's at least a little different, now.]

_{[Even if he were the type to take advantage Diva wouldn't see it that way. He's not really putting up much of a fight or protesting, which has her relaxing her grip around him. Does she really know what she's offering? Well, sort of. Not in its entirety, but she understands the physical aspect of it. The emotional might come and hit her like a brick later, but that's a problem for future Diva.]}

If it wasn't okay you would know.

_{[For one she wouldn't be so docile in his arms. If anything, she'd be thrashing about, tearing up pillows and his mattress.]}

I want to be close.

_{[Because there still feels like there's a void inside her from the knowledge she had received from Mephisto. If she couldn't have a baby, would she even be able to do something like this?]}

[Well, when she puts it that way... Of course he wants to be close, too; for that matter, hearing her say that's what she wants just about breaks his heart. He never meant to be anything but close to her.

Then... maybe this is really okay? It's not just him being selfish, after all... That makes it okay, right?]

... Lie back.

[That will work, surely: if he can physically be on top, then he will naturally take charge of this situation. He's just going to lie on top of her and... kiss her, to start. Kissing is always nice.]

_{[She rolls out of his grasp with little hesitation onto her back, blue eyes meeting gold ones expectantly. Maybe if Diva knew the inner turmoil Atsushi was going through she would be more forward with offering him reassurance. Instead she stays quiet, exhaling softly when Atsushi shifts to lay atop her. The weight is welcomed as she reaches to wrap her arms around his neck loosely.

Kissing is nice - that's something Diva will never disagree with. As soon as Atsushi's lips find hers she's readily returning the contact with a soft, wet sound. It's not bad, this position, even if it's the most submissive Diva's ever been in her life. If Atsushi is determined to take the lead she's not going to stop him.]}

[He's taking charge, all right - or at least trying his best to. (Her cooperation is much appreciated.) Kissing is something he's done more often, and even if he's still not an expert at it, he's used to it enough that it gives him confidence, in addition to feeling good.

It doesn't quell his nerves entirely, of course. There's more he needs to do, here, and while he's well aware of the mechanics of it all, it still feels like going in blind - which is quite literally what he's doing, too, because he wants to keep kissing, and that limits his options of sight considerably.

But he can still hike up her nightgown while he's at it, and awkwardly feel around to make sure it's high enough up to continue. He just -... He really doesn't know how to do the vaginas. He should probably try to carefully feel around in there, just an ass needs opening up??]

_{[When the presence of fingers suddenly make themselves known on the edge of the waistband of her panties she immediately freezes, only to squirm when they slide further down haphazardly brushing against her. It's different from when Takasugi has touched her, that much she's aware of, and as much as she's been going on about going all the way he wasn't just going to stick it in, was he?

A hand slides away from his neck, only to snag his wrist, stopping his hand effectively from roaming any further. She's not worked up enough for mischievous fingers just yet.]}

Wait...don't you want to undress me first?

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[Okay but can Takasugi please write a guide or something, because Atsushi really doesn't know! He's done some fooling around by now, and buttsex from both sides exactly once, and that's it. That's all he has to go on.

Still, he thinks he's doing all right, if only because he's not letting his nerves keep him from continuing what he's doing - but then Diva stops him. He's not offended, but he's certainly confused. Undress her?]

If you want...?

[He can do that, sure. He thought she might be more comfortable like this, but clearly he was wrong, so... here it goes.

All right. Undoing her nightgown, it is. Sitting up a little, he starts working on the buttons little by little. He feels so silly.... Maybe that's another reason to press on: he'd rather not have time to think about how ridiculous he must look!]

_{[Luckily for Atsushi Diva doesn't think he looks ridiculous at all. If anything he seems pretty focused and intent of stripping her, just as she'd suggested.

That doesn't mean she's not going to give him a coy look though as he does so, relaxing against the mattress as he fiddles with buttons. It's funny, how much of a fuss he had put up in the past when it came to seeing her naked and now he was going to get a full look at her and more.]}

Lucky you.

_{[Is he though??? That remains to be seen.]}

[It can't be helped?! She's the one who wants to be naked! And considering how they're planning to have sex... it seems silly to make a big deal out of nudity. Even if it's not necessary to undress for sex, it's still not as embarrassing as the sex itself, either.

He looks from the buttons to her, trying to read her meaning from her expression, but the face she's making merely makes him blush.]

... I am.

[Yes, of course. He's very lucky, and he'd never deny that.

Meanwhile he's gotten some buttons out of the way, so he thinks he can take the nightgown off of her - with a little help.]

Lift your arms?

_{[Lifting her arms is easy enough to do as she moves to help wriggle herself out of her nightgown. It's the only thing she's wearing, panties aside and when it's finally stripped free from her body she's left fully on display, flopping back onto the mattress without delay. It's better this way, she thinks, and there's no shame in it either. More comfortable too.

Her hair is splayed beneath her, contrasting sharply with the outline of porcelain white skin. She's a sight to behold, the only accents of pink visible consisting of her lips and perked nipples. Calling her pretty wouldn't do her justice - she's far more alluring than just that.]}

See? It's better this way.

[Of course she's more than just pretty, though Atsushi doesn't often think other words. She's gorgeous. Seeing her exposed before him is the rough equivalent of having a mountain of chazuke bowls and/or gold stacked up in front of him - and she should be just as unattainable.

Yet here they are. He's gotten used to not having to panic about finances (to some degree), but this is entirely new to him. There's no way that someone like him deserves this.]

... It is. [He can't deny that. It's impossible not to stare at least a little.] Can I touch you?

[That sure is a logical thing to ask when you've already agreed on sex. But touching her when she's naked still feels different than "just" sex, somehow.]

_{[It's kind of silly, she thinks, that he's bothering to ask, but at the same time his manners are endearing. It just goes to further drive home the point of how sweet Atsushi really is. He may not think someone like him deserves 'this' but that's far from the truth. Compared to her he's a better person on all fronts.

The way he stares only has her grinning, hands reaching for his wrists to gently guide his palms to her chest.]}

I want you to.

_{[It's exciting, being looked at the way Atsushi's looking at her. It's different from the hungry gazes she'd get on nights she'd frequent the red light district for a bite. There's ultimately respect there, behind his eyes, and that for some reason gets her heart to thrum a little faster.]}

[OMG SHE WENT THERE! She really went right there! He just about has a heart attack at first contact - but the world doesn't explode or anything, and he settles down a bit. God, they're so soft...!

Very carefully, he feels up her breasts, tracing the contours of them, amazed at how they respond to his touch. The weight of them is so strange, when they're not confined by clothing... So soft; so warm.

And then he fully realizes what she said. If she wants him to touch there, then...]

Does it feel good?

_{[It's interesting to watch him go about touching her, tracing her curves and more or less marveling at what's on display for him to explore. Nudity has never been something Diva has been bothered by, especially her own, so the heat that begins to rise to her cheeks isn't that of embarrassment. If anything it's delight, delight at how fixated Atsushi seems to be.

That, and his hands feel warm and nice against her skin.]}

Mm, it does. I like it.

_{[And because she can't help herself, she follows it up with a question she already knows the answer to.]}

You do too, right?

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